[ Someone should suffer. Someone should be the one to pay the price.
He shakes his head desperately as he quickly turns away, squeezing his eyes shut before his hands come up to press over them. His throat feels tight, it's like his head's been stuffed with scratchy fabric, and his heart aches in such an unbearable fashion that he thinks it might split in two. How much longer does he have to go on like this? His fragile state is only further worsened by how out of touch he feels after drinking in excess, and regrets pile on top of regrets. Even now, he mentally chastises himself for his honesty in the face of Eustace's continued questioning, for revealing what he has. He can't seem to do anything right. It would be better if... if...
He's trembling now, barely in control of his emotions, and his voice cracks when he finally responds. ]
No, of course not. [ Maybe... a long time ago he had. And maybe that was enough to have done it. ] Please don't tell me it's not my fault. I'm still the one who did it.
[ Almost 22,000 years in total isolation to atone for his sins, and not even a fraction of the way there. ]
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He shakes his head desperately as he quickly turns away, squeezing his eyes shut before his hands come up to press over them. His throat feels tight, it's like his head's been stuffed with scratchy fabric, and his heart aches in such an unbearable fashion that he thinks it might split in two. How much longer does he have to go on like this? His fragile state is only further worsened by how out of touch he feels after drinking in excess, and regrets pile on top of regrets. Even now, he mentally chastises himself for his honesty in the face of Eustace's continued questioning, for revealing what he has. He can't seem to do anything right. It would be better if... if...
He's trembling now, barely in control of his emotions, and his voice cracks when he finally responds. ]
No, of course not. [ Maybe... a long time ago he had. And maybe that was enough to have done it. ] Please don't tell me it's not my fault. I'm still the one who did it.
[ Almost 22,000 years in total isolation to atone for his sins, and not even a fraction of the way there. ]