Kaeya has lost track of time at some point. Once Estinien discarded his body aside, everything that occurred immediately afterwards feels like a blur, like the end credits of a movie playing through at twice the speed, but the brightest and most vivid parts are all the ones that involved nothing but pain. It's not just because his soul has just been ripped away from him so brutally, but everything else that happened afterwards.
Like everything has been amplified, he can feel Estinien's hatred and his anger over the way that the scene is unfolding — not only has Makoto entered the fray, but soon enough, Gen and Eustace have arrived too. He vaguely remembers getting whisked away in Eustace's arms before that, too, become too much to handle, and then he can't recall much more after that. The farther away he is from his shard, the more disconnected he feels, as if his nerves are fraying at the edges, as if what makes him whole and complete is falling apart at the seams.
It hurts so much.
It's all he can really focus on up until he realizes that he's been left behind somewhere a few ways away from the storehouse. Eustace must have gone back inside, it's the only thing that makes sense right now, and so what he does next is a direct result of that: he struggles to bring himself to a stand. He attempts to do so a few times, each one more agonizing than the last, but when it seems like it isn't going to work, he does the next best thing which is dragging himself in a slow crawl.
He doesn't get very far, not with what little strength he last left, and when he hears Estinien's roar again, he can't help the new wave that overtakes him completely. The disorientation and misery are much worse this time around, overcoming him to the point where it just feels like that's all he is left with now. His saving grace comes when he finds the energy to finally look up. He sees someone he didn't expect to be anywhere near here at all.
Almost immediately, he is overcome with a plethora of emotions that he can't quite process at this very moment. The strongest one, and perhaps the most sincere, is that of relief when he realizes it's Silco who now holds his shard. This is the same man who stayed with him when everyone else left him behind, so it's no surprise that he's so grateful for this small reprieve. Maybe it's sad to think about how he feels the safest around a man he can barely trust, but he doesn't even really care at this point. Since it's Silco, he...
Everything goes black soon after that, leaving that thought unfinished.
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Like everything has been amplified, he can feel Estinien's hatred and his anger over the way that the scene is unfolding — not only has Makoto entered the fray, but soon enough, Gen and Eustace have arrived too. He vaguely remembers getting whisked away in Eustace's arms before that, too, become too much to handle, and then he can't recall much more after that. The farther away he is from his shard, the more disconnected he feels, as if his nerves are fraying at the edges, as if what makes him whole and complete is falling apart at the seams.
It hurts so much.
It's all he can really focus on up until he realizes that he's been left behind somewhere a few ways away from the storehouse. Eustace must have gone back inside, it's the only thing that makes sense right now, and so what he does next is a direct result of that: he struggles to bring himself to a stand. He attempts to do so a few times, each one more agonizing than the last, but when it seems like it isn't going to work, he does the next best thing which is dragging himself in a slow crawl.
He doesn't get very far, not with what little strength he last left, and when he hears Estinien's roar again, he can't help the new wave that overtakes him completely. The disorientation and misery are much worse this time around, overcoming him to the point where it just feels like that's all he is left with now. His saving grace comes when he finds the energy to finally look up. He sees someone he didn't expect to be anywhere near here at all.
Almost immediately, he is overcome with a plethora of emotions that he can't quite process at this very moment. The strongest one, and perhaps the most sincere, is that of relief when he realizes it's Silco who now holds his shard. This is the same man who stayed with him when everyone else left him behind, so it's no surprise that he's so grateful for this small reprieve. Maybe it's sad to think about how he feels the safest around a man he can barely trust, but he doesn't even really care at this point. Since it's Silco, he...
Everything goes black soon after that, leaving that thought unfinished.