[ was kaeya's last statement meant to be a jab at ryunosuke or was it just yet another attempt to convince himself? a part of him is also desperate to believe that their worlds aren't gone, that somehow, against all the odds, mondstadt is still out there, and everyone is just waiting for him to come back. nowadays, it's so hard to tell whether he truly believes that the city he loves is gone or if it's just the kenoma leaving no room for him to believe otherwise.
nowadays, it's so hard to believe in anything at all.
this isn't really something that ryunosuke can fix. it isn't something that mere words will be able to smooth over because it's a lot more complicated than that, especially when the root cause goes much deeper. if only ryunosuke knows, if only he can understand why kaeya is the way he is, then maybe —
when asked if he tried communing with lumine since she left, this is all he has to say: ]
Yes. It felt a lot like reaching out to an empty void. There wasn't a single trace of her left.
[ it's a lie, of course, because he doesn't want to know what'll happen if he does. maybe he's afraid to know. he leaves it at that. it's not like he has anything more to say.
and if ryunosuke tries to call for him again, he'll ignore it. ]
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nowadays, it's so hard to believe in anything at all.
this isn't really something that ryunosuke can fix. it isn't something that mere words will be able to smooth over because it's a lot more complicated than that, especially when the root cause goes much deeper. if only ryunosuke knows, if only he can understand why kaeya is the way he is, then maybe —
when asked if he tried communing with lumine since she left, this is all he has to say: ]
Yes. It felt a lot like reaching out to an empty void. There wasn't a single trace of her left.
[ it's a lie, of course, because he doesn't want to know what'll happen if he does. maybe he's afraid to know. he leaves it at that. it's not like he has anything more to say.
and if ryunosuke tries to call for him again, he'll ignore it. ]