[ he leans in enough to very gently nudge ernesto's shoulder with his own, mindful of not jostling the injury. wryly, tone light, ]
I'm used to it.
[ never going back somewhere? losing things that made him happy? well...yes. he had to flee two rivers knowing there was a chance they'd never return, but he hadn't known until shortly before horos that he'd really never be able to go back. he'd told abel, hadn't he? there's no going back for him, even if his world is still there. and maybe he should...maybe even a small part of him would want to go back, just to make sure everyone is okay. but.
but.
godsblood isn't home, and neither was his apartment, but both are as close as he'd ever come here, in some senses. in other senses, home has always been about people as much as places for rand al'thor. sitting beside ernesto on this couch, now, is as much home — more, in some ways — than a small, fairly empty room to himself had been. and happy isn't...hasn't, really, been in the cards for months. he doesn't expect happiness. ]
It was just a room. It's not worth endangering anyone who lives there more than I already have.
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I'm used to it.
[ never going back somewhere? losing things that made him happy? well...yes. he had to flee two rivers knowing there was a chance they'd never return, but he hadn't known until shortly before horos that he'd really never be able to go back. he'd told abel, hadn't he? there's no going back for him, even if his world is still there. and maybe he should...maybe even a small part of him would want to go back, just to make sure everyone is okay. but.
but.
godsblood isn't home, and neither was his apartment, but both are as close as he'd ever come here, in some senses. in other senses, home has always been about people as much as places for rand al'thor. sitting beside ernesto on this couch, now, is as much home — more, in some ways — than a small, fairly empty room to himself had been. and happy isn't...hasn't, really, been in the cards for months. he doesn't expect happiness. ]
It was just a room. It's not worth endangering anyone who lives there more than I already have.