Matt, too, is struggling with how victorious a victory this really is. After what he's seen of the Innocence, what Xishen had told him about how she's less a being and more an amalgamation of traits and energies, it seems impossible that she should really be gone. But if there's a time and place to say that, the Regent's throne room at this exact juncture is ... decidedly not that time or place.
Still, he murmurs agreement over the rim of his glass. At Zenos' question, he stiffens.
Matt should probably start expecting this. In a way, when he's around other people, he always is--buzzing with awareness of what he's lost, shame and awkwardness hanging around him like a miasma. None of it prepares him to answer the question, though.
Part of him thinks, fuck it. He's closer to the Kenoma now than he's ever been, and that's the only force he really needs to impress.
"I cut it off," he answers. (Technically Xishen cut it off, but that wasn't really her decision. She sure as hell didn't suggest it.) "Scrying for the Innocence. I don't know how much it helped or not in the end, but I figured--she hurt so many people, I had to try."
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Still, he murmurs agreement over the rim of his glass. At Zenos' question, he stiffens.
Matt should probably start expecting this. In a way, when he's around other people, he always is--buzzing with awareness of what he's lost, shame and awkwardness hanging around him like a miasma. None of it prepares him to answer the question, though.
Part of him thinks, fuck it. He's closer to the Kenoma now than he's ever been, and that's the only force he really needs to impress.
"I cut it off," he answers. (Technically Xishen cut it off, but that wasn't really her decision. She sure as hell didn't suggest it.) "Scrying for the Innocence. I don't know how much it helped or not in the end, but I figured--she hurt so many people, I had to try."