[Unfortunately for all involved... Acceptance isn't what is happening here. Hayame tries... somehow, she tries to reject what is happening, with her mind if not her body. But despite her efforts, how defiantly she tries to believe that what she's feeling isn't happening... her body still heals under the influence of the other woman's magic.
Her pain eases. Her breathing becomes less shallow. Her mind becomes more clear.
And she misses it. The pain, the blurry edges of her thought that made her think... Maybe she would die. Maybe she would die and she wouldn't even have to find the nerve to slit her own belly open. So rather than a savior... that magic healer who speaks to her so kindly sounding is instead the woman who has robbed her of blissful freedom from a world where nothing made sense and she had no reason she'd yet to believe in to survive.]
I said leave me-
[Is that bark convincing, delivered in the dirt with only her long, disheveled hair to hide the fact that her cheeks are streaked with shameful, hot tears?]
cw: suicidial ideation
Her pain eases. Her breathing becomes less shallow. Her mind becomes more clear.
And she misses it. The pain, the blurry edges of her thought that made her think... Maybe she would die. Maybe she would die and she wouldn't even have to find the nerve to slit her own belly open. So rather than a savior... that magic healer who speaks to her so kindly sounding is instead the woman who has robbed her of blissful freedom from a world where nothing made sense and she had no reason she'd yet to believe in to survive.]
I said leave me-
[Is that bark convincing, delivered in the dirt with only her long, disheveled hair to hide the fact that her cheeks are streaked with shameful, hot tears?]
What part of that don't you understand- !?