[ He shrugs at the apology. Not like it was Matt's fault; not like there's anything that can be done about it. It just is what it is at this point.

At the idea of not being in a situation like that again, though... That's where Amos turns inwards. Yeah, he hopes for the same thing. But. ]

I want to kill the thing that did that to me. [ And to other people, but... that's beside the point for him, unfortunately. ] Which means it could get in my head again. The sooner I can be pulled out of it, the better.

[ He hasn't looked away from Matt once during all of this; he doesn't look away now. As much as he hates that this might be a necessity, fact of the matter is, Matt's as good a candidate as any to trust with this. He already knows part of the story; he's been through something similar; he wouldn't abuse it. It's really about as good as Amos could hope for, so. ]

I can tell you how to do that, guaranteed. If you want.

[ It's still his choice, after all. That's important to both of them, right? So no hard feelings if Matt doesn't want to hear anymore. He hopes that's obvious from his tone, his words, but who ever knows with him. ]