[ it's difficult to hear her say such things - being unable to forgive herself when Abel knows precisely how kind and deserving of that forgiveness she is, especially in the face of something like this. Himeka hadn't meant to hurt anyone; what she did was not the malicious act of a spiteful soul looking to lash out at others, shirk her responsibilities. even so... he can understand that guilt is not so easy a thing to assuage, and that it doesn't lessen the consequences - nor the sting of acknowledging her faults - in the face of her choices.

if she feels the weight of that guilt and responsibility, then dismissing it as undeserved would be doing her a disservice. ]

Then the only thing you can do is decide how to make amends for yourself.

[ if her family would forgive her and her village with time, then all that's left is for her to forgive herself. she hasn't been ostracized and her relationship with her loved ones isn't irreparably broken - as long as that's the fact, then there's hope she can one day return to her homeland with pride instead of shame in her eyes. ]

Whether it's bringing pieces of all the homes you've made in your travels into their little world or protecting them in that way only you can, then-- you'll find it. Until you do decide what it is, though... I think it's okay to take your time and figure it out. What will give you peace, and what will bring peace to them. Do you feel the same...?