[ well, at least amos burton thinks it's good that he's shaken after taking a life. thank the light for that.
though shaken (or fucked up) might not be the word right now. or maybe it is. he feels so much like nothing, that upswell of fear and horror and anger congealing back into numbness, distance from the situation at hand. he'll find his way back to rage sooner than the rest, but crushing resignation is an older friend. he'd had people to put on a brave face for the last time, but his current company is little better than being alone. ]
I can handle whatever I need to.
[ is more weary than defiant. the last few months of his life have been a game of leapfrog from the last unbearable circumstance to the next. either he'll hit his limit eventually or stop feeling anything at all. regardless, he finds that he isn't interested in talking about the particulars of what happened. or talking, really, at all. ]
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though shaken (or fucked up) might not be the word right now. or maybe it is. he feels so much like nothing, that upswell of fear and horror and anger congealing back into numbness, distance from the situation at hand. he'll find his way back to rage sooner than the rest, but crushing resignation is an older friend. he'd had people to put on a brave face for the last time, but his current company is little better than being alone. ]
I can handle whatever I need to.
[ is more weary than defiant. the last few months of his life have been a game of leapfrog from the last unbearable circumstance to the next. either he'll hit his limit eventually or stop feeling anything at all. regardless, he finds that he isn't interested in talking about the particulars of what happened. or talking, really, at all. ]