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EVENT #1: THE EMPTY THRONE

The Empty Throne
DESCENT
Nearly two weeks after being dragged from shrine caverns, you hear along the grapevine that the "the throne room is complete." It doesn't take long to figure out what that means; the ritual grounds that you have been hearing mention of are finally prepared, and it's only a short while before you are once again being gathered together for travel. As a small mercy, at least this time the journey is short.

Through a passage that has been blocked by a gathering of soldiers for the entire length of your stay, a stairway is revealed to you. It leads deep into the ruins, through unfamiliar structures and into the bowels of the earth. Though your feel your are mostly going downward, the walk is still long on account of how many stairs their are, and the soldiers escorting you are restless. They are now being led by the stray, mask wearing Achamites that have been accompanying the group till now, silently observing. Whatever place this is, it seems that they now hold court.

Funneled into the chambers below, you are greeted by a massive, domed enclosure of stone. Positioned around its circular radius are twelve thrones in various states of disrepair, sized as if meant to seat giants. The backs of these thrones all differ slightly in design, though most have great cleaves of stone broken loose from their architecture, as if subjected to some great cataclysm. Each is engraved with a sigil, though some have been obscured by the destruction wrought. The throne closest to the entrance has been almost entirely demolished, making it impossible to glean much about.

The dome's ceiling appears to be hundreds of feet tall at its apex, its smooth surface disrupted by stalactites that puncture through its form like teeth. As a result, many chunks of the original structure seem to have cracked and collapsed in to the floor below. When examined closely, these fragments of the domed ceiling seem to be made of a material strangely reflective in quality, though caked in many years of dirt and grime. If large enough sections are cleaned, patterns may emerge, revealing designs that look almost like star maps. The floor beneath your feet as a similar, but subtly different quality, covered in wreckage and ruin but can be cleaned to reveal complex patterns of intersecting lines.

A careful eye will indicate that these lines all lead towards the center of the room - the one space that has been cleared and scrubbed prior to your arrival. Here, the lines converge, with carefully preserved marking in the stone that bely increasing levels of runic complexity the closer you look. This is where the ritual will be held, you are told.

THE RITUAL
There is not much time to regain your bearings before you are being shuffled forth towards the ritual space; no, all the waiting has already been done. Under the command of the smaller group of Achamites, the Hylicians will make heavy use of the whips in leading everyone to their places along the rune-inscribed circle. Before that, however, small cuts will be made to each prisoner with an athame, either on their hand or arm. With a sharp, burning sensation in the afflicted skin, these cuts will spread into wounds reflecting the image of one of the eleven sigils displayed on the thrones encircling the group, and matching the shrine they were originally pulled from.

With this accomplished, they can finally be taken into the circle. With a design comprised of four triangles overlapping, the design of an open eye carved at its center, all prisoners will be led to separates points on its design where the lines cross. Seemingly arranged by their shrine sigil to be closest to whatever throne represents them, they will be brought to their designated positions one by one. Any attempts to flee or disrupt the process will be dealt with swiftly and harshly, exacerbated by the increasing levels of paranoia and fear in the soldiers themselves. Whatever is being done here, they don't seem happy to involved with it either.

When everyone is in place, the seeming master of ceremonies will finally emerge. A dark haired woman will appear from the shadows, motes of golden light fluttering about her otherwise darkness-clad visage. Moving towards the center of the circle, she will stand over the marking of the eye and begin working her magicks. As if on cue, the soldiers will withdraw any remaining whips and scurry to the outside of the circle, only for new bonds of ethereal energy to lash out of the ritual circle itself, binding each and every prisoner and dragging them down to their knees. Among the soldiers, you can hear mutterings identifying this woman as "the Aion."

"Come," she says to the coterie of robed Achamites, who will approach the circle with an assortment of vials collected into cases. There is enough for each prisoner to be given a drink, and so they will; a vial of abyssal liquid will be forced into each one of your throats, no matter how uncomfortably it must be done. While no less ruthless, the Achamites have a different way about them as they work, forcing themselves upon you with a strange familiarity that feels more akin to a mother forcing their child to take medicine than the suspicious hostility of the soldiers. As the foul liquid touches your tongue, it takes on a consistency almost like a living thing, crawling down your throat even if you refuse to swallow, all while the Achamites stroke your hair and make saccharine assurances.

Once all the prisoners have been fed their vial, the Achamamites too will retreat from the circle - all except for one. Joining 'the Aion' at the center, the two of them will begin enacting a planned ceremony of sorts, that culminates in the following scene:

The Achamite kneels before the Aion, lifting their masked face to meet their dark gaze. They speak, in practiced tones.

"To the Kenoma my body, to the Kenoma my soul."

In response, the Aion holds the Achamite's face between their hands in almost a loving gesture. She speaks softly:

"By the blood of the Martyr, I accept your sacrifice."

From the Aion's hands a darkness spreads across the Achamite's body, as if they are melting and dissolving on a cellular level. She kneels along with them, cradling them as their body breaks down, pooling in a void-black liquid around their knees. It drains into the lines of the ritual circle, surging out towards the prisoners.

Within moments, the ritual is complete.

KENOMA SICKNESS
As this dark power surges throughout the ritual circle, you will find yourself almost consumed by the tide. Whatever foul creation you were forced to swallow wakes within your chest, and you can feel it move within your veins, inside you lungs, behind your eyes. As quickly as it begins, the flood of darkness washes over you, but not without leaving you stained.

Something has changed in its wake. As you return to your senses, you will notice the magical bonds of the circle have fallen away, leaving you free to move; for once, the soldiers will not move to lead or restrain you. Instead, the Hylicians warily back away from the ritual space, retreating towards the only path upwards, where they form a defensive line. The Achamites that linger make a series of ritual gestures, praying in voices too soft to hear. The Aion woman stands in the center, her hands blackened with residue from the person you just watched fall to pieces in her arms.

"You will be given time to find your truth," she says. "Use it well."

As you recover from the experience enough to stand, she and her Achamite entourage are already retreating to join the Hylician guard. Gradually, your situation will become clear: they intend to keep your trapped down here. However, it will not be the same as when you waited before. Instead, the soldiers simply intend to block your only exit out, and otherwise leave you free to roam the full diameter of the throne room, seemingly free to do whatever you want as long as it isn't trying to break free of the cavern's confines. Each day, they will offer to their prisoners a limit supply of food, water, and firewood, but nothing more. Beyond that, you only have your increasingly dirty white robes and the same bedrolls as before.

COMMUNION
The first change you will experience is an itching darkness in your mind, like a psychic wound that is becoming infected. The sort of thoughts you would normally try to force down become increasingly hard to resist; despair, hatred, and fear will plague you, and requiring great feats of will to silence even temporarily. Phantoms of the things you'd rather forget will become a constant companion, all while a presence seems to whisper: when you accept your fate, the pain will stop.

Worse than this, the darkness of your mind may not remain private. As if awakened by the ritual, your empathetic sense has become impossibly strong, to the point that you feel the broadcasted emotions and thoughts of others, and in turn, your darkest thoughts will be psychically projected to others with a volume proportional to the intensity with which you feel them. This effect is most potent between those sharing Legacy, with the capacity for their identities to become momentarily confused. In all cases, this connection may bleed into your dreams, or manifest as hallucinations.

TRANSFORMATION
Yet, your mind is not the only thing that ails. In proportion to the strength of your emotions, your body may begin changing to match your state of mind. Physical transformations akin to those mentioned here will begin to manifest, themed to your inner suffering and the most negative aspects of your self conception. These alterations may shift from moment to moment, depending on the turbulence of your emotional state. They may or may not be painful.

AFFLICTION
Along with the above effects, characters may also experience various more mundane ailments; essentially anything traditionally associated with illness could fit. Weakness, nausea, body aches, and chills are all common options. Along with this, void-black ooze may start to trickle from virtually any orifice. While it may stain clothing and skin, the material itself will dissipate after a few minutes in a manner reminiscent of ectoplasm. This effect may also appear around your Shard, as if the stone itself has begun to bleed.

RESISTANCE
Even as the Kenoma threatens to overwhelm you, you still have the power to fight. Though it may be a grueling war of attrition, you can force back its advances with sufficient will to survive and resist the darkness. Of course, your captors are not going to make this easy for you. Those that fight hard enough to expel the Kenoma from their bodies and spirits will take at least a week to do so, and for that duration they will be trapped within this chilly cavern, haunted by their worst thoughts and emotions.

The bedrolls barely strand up against the cold, your clothing doesn't at all, and to be comfortable you'll require fire. Yet, there is a limited amount provided to you, along with food and water, and the soldiers do not seem to be making any effort to distribute it evenly. Achieving basic warmth and sustenance may become a battle against your fellow inmates, all while you struggle against the enemy infecting your body. Cracks in the dome of the cavern lead into some smaller caverns and crevasses in the stone that can offer some privacy or protection, but the more splintered the group becomes the less the supplies will hold up. Fortunately for you, neither the cold nor starvation will kill you, but it will make you suffer.

Yet, you may still persevere. As you fight back the Kenoma, something else will be cultivated in its place. Bit by bit, a comforting and warm presence will grow within you, gradually disrupting the maladies afflicting your body and mind. Your faith and perseverance has been rewarded with an attunement to the Pleroma, the Kenoma's cosmological opposite; given enough time, the Kenoma will be forced from your being entirely, in the form of void-black sludge. Only then will your power begin to shine through, the abilities of your past life slowly returning.

You must keep your guard. With or without otherworldly power, escape will be a struggle.

ACCEPTANCE
Or, you may choose the easy option. Maybe the Kenoma resonates with your history and emotions in a way that makes it seem like it isn't the enemy. Maybe the depths of your despair are too deep to escape. Maybe your simply lack the strength to fight. Whatever the reason, sooner or later, the Kenoma claims you. The more you let it in, the less it feels like a poison and the more it feels like strength. The darkness settles comfortably into the cracks and holes of your spirit, and you awaken to its power. You feel the change viscerally.

This world is not good enough, a voice seems to speak through the Kenoma. This suffering you feel, the cruelty that has birthed this darkness in you... it is simply the rot that is consuming this existence. A better universe awaits, one forged by your own hand, and all you need do is first bring about this broken reality's end.

Whatever effects you were suffering from the Kenoma's presence will fade away, and in its place, you will feel your endurance bolstered. The clarity is stark in comparison to the mire you were trapped in before. As the other prisoners suffer around you, the Aion woman from before and an accompaniment of a couple Hylician soldiers will approach you among the ruins, as if summoned straight to your location. She looks you over, her dark eyes impassive, and then asks:

"Did you feel it?"

She doesn't actually wait for an answer, your expression alone enough to assure her. She'll tell the soldiers that you are free to go, and that you are to be given a share of their food and a change of clothes. She'll escort you out of cavern and towards the upper ruins, where the soldiers and Achamites have set up camp. This feels natural to you, somehow, like you and her are on the same wavelength in a way that is hard to comprehend. She is like you, you sense. That dark power is within her as well.

She doesn't linger with you for long, but she will see that you are on your way before heading back to the caverns. She'll say that the voice you heard, that promise, was the Regent, the ruler of this land. They spoke of a power that could birth a new, better universe, and they weren't misleading you. It's within their reach, closer than ever, and if you help them achieve it you will be rewarded lavishly. For now, you are free to regain your strength while the others make their choices. She only asks that you stay in the area and be ready to join the Regent in Achamoth when all is prepared.

If you're prone to boredom, though, she will mention that you'd really be doing the prisoners a favor by convincing them to accept the Kenoma like you did. You could convince them with words, or by making their situations so unbearable they won't have a choice but to break. However you'd like. It won't be worse than what's coming for them if they carry on this way.

When she parts ways with you, you are left to your own devices. Somehow, you feel inclined to cooperate. After all, the Regent did have a point.

QUESTIONS
Are the involuntary transformations during the Kenoma sickness period temporary afflictions or permanent ones?
By default they are temporary, but characters can also keep a couple keepsake changes if you'd like! An Aion's physical appearance is something that is generally in flux, and so even if you keep something from this event, you can always alter it later.

What kind of supplies are going to be distributed to those who accept Kenoma and leave the caverns?
They'll be given food, water, and clothing. They'll be given more/better rations than they were as prisoners, but it's still the sort of food that is limited by the fact that they are out here on a mission. The soldiers will have some fresh meat from prey they've been hunting in the forest, and will generally be having a lot of stew-based food going. There are actual spices in it, though, so that's cool. This is all set up where the Hylicians are camping.

As for clothes, they will get a fresh set (including boots or shoes) and some soap to clean themselves up in the nearby creeks and ponds. Hylici has an aesthetic that leans towards ancient Greek/Roman, so while they won't have anything fancy with them, you are free to assume they are able to acquire anything in that general ballpark. They do also have pants, though. While it is now spring and Horos has a generally temperate climate, it can be chilly at night.

Will Pleroma attuned be able to escape once they've regained their powers?
Yes, they will be allowed to escape at that point, and a second log will be going up to cover that part of the event. This log should generally cover up until shortly after Pleroma start ejecting the Kenoma's influence. Characters are permitted to escape by their own power if they somehow devise a plan to do so, but as we know the Pleromas are at a significant disadvantage in this situation, some characters who have fought against the Kenoma particularly valiantly will be given some magical assistance to help the survivors escape.

Will the Kenomas be able to try to stop them?
Yes! The second log will be set up to contain some PVP, though given the Pleromas do need to escape, we ask that you play nice. There will be a battle, but it will be structured in the context of the Pleromas having to hold off the Kenomas long enough to escape, so it will be relatively brief.

Can we speak to "the Aion"?
Yes, she will be around for the full length of the event. All characters will have the chance to find her watching over the group whether they are Kenomas or soon to be Pleromas. She will not be that talkative, though, so anyone tagging her will have to lead the conversation. She will not make small talk. Martyrs will recognize her as one of them.

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[personal profile] salvageable 2022-03-05 04:42 am (UTC)(link)
I. COMMUNION BUT IT'S WHINE AND DREAD
[ Guess who looks and feels like complete and utter shit? It's Dokja, but so what considering everyone else is going through the same thing.

Maybe that's why he's tucked away into one of the farthest sides of the cavern, away from the others so as not to draw attention to the way he lies curled up on his side, gasps and grips his head like it's trying to split open. The pain is unbearable and there's so much of it as it overflows and pours out in thunderous waves, making sure not to leave any part of his mind untouched.

Then spills out to sweep anyone in the vicinity into its treacherous folds.

Why me? Why for someone like me? His thoughts repeat over and over. I want to forget everything. He suffocates on despair, feels it crush his throat and rob him of his breath. I want to disappear. Yes... yes. He should have disappeared. There had been so little of him left up until arriving in this strange new world.

His vision blurs and he slowly uncurls his hands from his head, dropping them down in front of his face as he stares blankly at his fingers the way he has been for weeks now.

It would be better if I didn't exist. ]

II. IT'S HECKING COLD
[ Who needs food? Dokja would rather have fire. He's been trading his rations for firewood, his appetite basically dead at this point with how unwell he is and how his body can't seem to stop shaking from both the cold and the sickness. The flimsy gown does absolutely nothing for him as he hugs his knees closer to his chest and tucks in his chin to try and warm whatever parts his breath can reach. The fire itself is small and in danger of going out, each flicker weak as it consumes more and more of the bits of firewood left.

Shit, he's going to have to get up and look for more. It feels like he's been in this stupid cavern forever... But despite the pain wracking his body, there's something else nestled inside of him alongside the darkness that pushes him to keep going.

It's about then that one of the soldiers comes by to pass around meager portions of food, and Dokja frowns at the fact that it's not firewood as it's handed over to him. ]


Hey, can I get firewood instead? [ he asks the soldier, but they're already turning and walking away. Dokja grimaces and turns to his fireside buddy. ] What a jerk, right?

[ He offers a weak smile, the strain of it taking too much effort, but he doesn't care. He needs a distraction and if he passes out from the useless expense of energy then that would be great since anything is better than being conscious right now. ]

III. RESISTANCE BUT STUPID (cw: emeto)
[ He loses track of the days but it's becoming increasingly clear that the sickness is becoming less and less severe. Dokja feels it in the way his mind begins to clear and the strength that returns to his limbs.

It's all too welcome.

And then nausea hits him like a train and he staggers forward, a hand coming up to his chest as he doubles over and vomits out something that looks like nasty black sludge. Dokja stares at it, wide-eyed and stupefied, before he turns to the nearest person with his mouth agape. ]


You could throw that up this entire time?

[ What the fuck? ]

IV. WILDCARD
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[personal profile] lockedon 2022-03-05 04:31 pm (UTC)(link)
[ The seconds blur into minutes and hours, and the hours into days. The poison worms its way even further into his body, leaving behind aches, nausea, and an unshakeable chill that threatens to permeate into his bones. He does his best to warm up, pushing himself up off the ground to pace the perimeter of the throne room, hoping the movement will be enough to warm him, but inevitably he's forced to sit back down, his fatigue too strong to ignore.

Somehow, he ends up next to a familiar face, though it certainly wasn't his intent. It takes him longer to process the familarity than he'd like, and his greeting ("greeting") when he finally recognizes the man is nothing short of rude. ]


You look like shit.

[ But also, so does he, so this really is just pot meet kettle. ]
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[personal profile] salvageable 2022-03-06 03:08 am (UTC)(link)
[ The days have been rough and they don't seem to be getting any easier. Every muscle in Dokja's body aches, and he can't get warm no matter what he tries. Even now his teeth chatter as the frigid chill of the cavern seeps under his skin.

It fucking sucks.

And then it gets a worse? Not that he minds Eustace, but what an unwelcome greeting. ]


Did you sit down next to me just to tell me that?

[ He sounds suspicious as he hugs his arms around himself, fingers digging into the thin material of his ragged gown. There's no denying Dokja looks way worse than the last time they'd had a chat together, his bangs stuck against his sweaty forehead and the pallor of his skin practically translucent at this point. Even the circles under his eyes look darker which is kind of amazing? Because they were really dark to begin with. ]
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[personal profile] lockedon 2022-03-06 05:06 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Just two guys, sitting two feet apart, freezing their respective asses off because everything about this situation fucking sucks.

Eustace doesn't even have any sort of rude retort to follow up that question with, his own muscles tensing under his skin as he tries to will away the combination of chill and nausea threatening to overwhelm him. (Spoilers: it's barely working.)

Bold of Dokja to think Eustace would willingly seek him out though. ]


Don't think so highly of yourself.

[ Just kidding, apparently he still has it in him to be a rude asshole. But he sounds more tired than condescending, steadfast will not nearly enough to fight whatever's coursing through his body. At least he's not alone in his suffering, little solace though that is. ]

Ever experienced anything like this?

[ Maybe the guy has some tips. ]
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[personal profile] salvageable 2022-03-06 07:37 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Just like before, Eustace's words have no effect on Dokja. Besides, he'd have to think highly of himself or even think about himself at all for that to apply so who's the real joke here?

... It's still Dokja.

He at least puts real thought into the question. Sure, he's weathered his fair share of having to survive when it's cold. Seoul winters are nothing to scoff at, and he's always had the misfortune (and lack of funds) of living in shabby apartment buildings with little to no insulation or heating. But there had been ways around that, mostly by escaping to other buildings. Too bad that's not at all an option here. ]


No, [ he finally says with a shaky sigh. ] Nothing quite as extreme as this.

[ He rubs his hands up and down his arms, hoping that some friction will help, but the movement alone is painful for him, not to mention the lack of energy he has in the first place. His head droops, and he's looking absolutely down on himself when suddenly an idea comes to mind. ]

Hey, you seem like an animal guy. [ Literally. ] Shouldn't we all be huddling together for warmth?

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[personal profile] expiera 2022-03-05 05:49 pm (UTC)(link)
[It's almost a little funny, how familiar those laments are. Where had she heard them before? ...Right, from a little girl who didn't know anything. A little girl who died long ago, who lost the right to complain the day she tipped over a line there was no coming back from. Maybe that's what made it easier to pull herself back and not get drawn deeper in, as much as it also made him stick out like a beacon of despair. They can't disappear, they can't forget, they do exist. So the closest alternative, the smallest "mercy", would be...

...

In his state, can the man curled up on himself even take note that he's not left to his devices as he may have hoped? Feel the coolness of a damp cloth being placed on his forehead? There's a figure crouched in front of him, but they're wearing a hood, so even if he finds the strength to look up, he'll only catch strands of ultramarine blue slightly spilling from its rim at most. They don't say anything, as if merely there to keep watch. Maybe it's just part of the fever dream he's having? One could hardly fault him for thinking he may be hallucinating. The wet weight on his face, however, is quite real.]
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[personal profile] salvageable 2022-03-06 03:24 am (UTC)(link)
[ It's a constant slip in and out of consciousness and Dokja can't do anything but let his thoughts spiral. When he's awake, there's pain. When he's asleep, there's pain. Sometimes it manifests itself into hallucinations—Or are they dreams?

Whatever they are, they're never pleasant. They're accusatory faces as they loom over his prone body, gazes filled with contempt, a hand that places a weapon into his own then guides it to his neck.

But an end to his suffering never comes.

There's a fog over his eyes when he opens them, though his eyebrows furrow in confusion as he feels something foreign and damp against his forehead. He doesn't have the strength to reach up and feel for what it is, but even through the haze of anguish, he's familiar with the gesture, recognizes it from the days of his childhood.

It's then that he notices the figure, and his eyes can't seem to focus but they try. He squints, and cranes his aching neck before his cracked lips part and a hoarse voice wonders aloud, ]


Who...?

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[personal profile] expiera 2022-03-06 09:30 am (UTC)(link)
[It's truly a sickness in every sense of the word, isn't it? The way he seems to almost struggle with the shallow breaths he takes, the glistening of sweat at his brow visible even by the low lights of the cavern. His forehead felt hot when she briefly brushed her fingers against it to lay out the cloth, and she doesn't need to touch his hand to chance a guess that they must be ice cold.

Beyond that, beneath that, is a needle keen awareness of how they differ like night and day, despite how familiar and truly personal his pain felt. It goes beyond instinct, this inexplicable certainty that whatever that's ailing him now, whatever he's struggling so terribly hard against, it's inside her too; it's already been made part of her, unlike him who's still fighting on his own. She's accepted it without thought, the averse effects barely even had a chance to take hold. She has her own reasons.

...]


Please. Don't strain yourself.

[The voice is soft, female. She doesn't say more. So much for staying quiet. She dips her head slightly, and the hood falls lower. He's not going to see her face like this.

...]


Do you want water?

[If he may be cognizant enough to understand her...]
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[personal profile] salvageable 2022-03-06 07:23 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Another hallucination? His heart is pained by the thought. If only they were real and could actually do as they wanted. He'd barely been able to go through the motions when he'd become aware that the reason for the suffering of every single person he's ever loved had all been his fault, but to be constantly reminded of it now swallows him deeper and deeper into a darkness that he doesn't think he can draw himself out of.

I have to.

But he has to. It's like a different voice this time, and Dokja's eyes slip back shut. He's at war with himself and it drains him of his energy, has him feeling every single ache and sore that threatens to pull his body apart if he so much as moves.

... Water, she had said. And it reminds him of how dry his mouth feels, how heavy his tongue sits.

All he can do is manage a small nod in response. ]

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[personal profile] goldendeceiver 2022-03-05 06:49 pm (UTC)(link)
[ It's been a sad sight to see so many people formerly spirited people laid low by whatever strange occult nonsense has been done to them. Ernesto can understand, because despite his best efforts there are times that fighting against whatever is now inside him gets to be too much, and all he can do is curl in on himself as well.

He wishes he'd been able to find out just a little more before this all happened, even one thing that might have given them some small chance of getting out of this mess. There's no real guilt in the fact that he hadn't, because none of the others looking for answers found them either, but there is still regret.

He feels it now as he approaches Mr. Dokja slowly, worry etched onto his features as the thoughts and feelings hit him. Without a word he unrolls the bedroll in his arms (that formerly belonged to Eustace), and spreads it out over the fragile looking man.
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[personal profile] salvageable 2022-03-06 03:53 am (UTC)(link)
[ There's no registering the footsteps drawing closer and Dokja only notices the other person when they're spreading something over him. Even the weight of the bedroll feels like too much as they touch down on his sore, aching muscles, but the warmth follows soon after.

He draws in a shuddering breath, the pain still tearing at his mind and demanding that he give in, but Dokja can't bring himself to. Not yet.

I want to read that story a little longer... Just one more time...

He's exhausted, but his eyes travel over to the man next to him and he stares for a moment before recognition settles in.

And then shame burns through him. To show this side of himself to someone he's spoken to... Dokja's emotions radiate off of him in violent bursts, and his breathing grows erratic as he turns his gaze away. ]
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[personal profile] goldendeceiver 2022-03-06 04:22 am (UTC)(link)
[ It's something Ernesto can understand well. He's done a pretty good job of hiding himself away when the ooze inside of him really starts to eat away at him, but it's hard in a place like this. No one wants to be seen at their weakest moments, and no matter how bad the pain gets it doesn't stop the awareness that people are seeing you like this.

Maybe Ernesto, who perpetually hides his own pain, can appreciate this better than most. He settles onto the ground next to Dokja, but turns his back on the other man, looking out across the expanse of misery before him, noting that Dokja is far from the only one in this exact state right now.
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I won't look right now if you don't want me to, Mr. Dokja. And I'm big enough I think I can block anyone else from seeing you too.

[ He's not trying to pry, but it's impossible to not feel what Dokja is feeling at the moment. ]
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[personal profile] salvageable 2022-03-06 06:11 am (UTC)(link)
[ It's times like these that has Dokja missing the Fourth Wall more than ever. He used to be protected from things like this, but now he's especially vulnerable, his weakened state practically begging to be destroyed in the way that he so desperately wants.

But there's another part of him that fights. For what, he doesn't know. Maybe a chance to see the others again. Just a glimpse. Just to know that they're there and they're okay and that his precious world isn't actually gone.

He swallows down the lump in his throat as he watches Ernesto seat himself, back turned to Dokja. It's... it's appreciated, he thinks dully. He doesn't realize he's staring, but it's not like it matters. Nothing but the pain ripping through him matters right now. ]


Ernesto, [ he mutters quietly, mouth so incredibly dry. He tries to drag his focus away from his own agony. ] ... How are you holding up?

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[personal profile] traversal 2022-03-05 07:29 pm (UTC)(link)
[ that's ... that's just gross, dokja.

lumine's simply thankful that, despite eating and sleeping and pretty much living very little for the past few days, her body has retained its reflexes and manages to avoid the incoming black goo he expels from his mouth. as disgusting as that was (and really, she wishes she didn't have to witness it), it does draw her attention to it, her expression mirroring his as she realises what it was.
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I ... didn't know, either. How ...

[ because it's been days and while she's been throwing up pretty much everything she's eaten so far, none of it looked like that. ]

Did you eat something that made you throw it up?
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[personal profile] salvageable 2022-03-06 04:24 am (UTC)(link)
[ At least they can be comrades in disgust. Dokja steps away from the sludge on the ground like it might come back for him, grimacing as the hand on his chest comes down to his stomach. It never feels good to puke, but something about this one had been especially bad.

He wipes at his mouth and chin with the back of his hand, pointedly refusing to look at the mess he'd made. Someone... someone else will clean that up. ]


I don't think so?

[ He can't recall... Most of the rations that had been handed to him had either been traded or given away. He's never had much of an appetite to begin with, and feeling like he was dying for days on end certainly had not helped with that. ]

In fact, I was starting to feel okay just before I threw up.
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[personal profile] traversal 2022-03-07 12:57 pm (UTC)(link)
[ strange.

lumine also shifts away from the sludge and tries not to look at it, expecting it to suddenly move like one of the slimes in teyvat. she too is starting to feel better, at least compared to the past several days where it's felt like she's been teetering between life and death. but she doesn't remember throwing up something like this.
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And how do you feel now? [ she's curious, and also she wants to confirm if this is the source of all of their problems. ] You don't think they'll force-feed it to us again, do you?

[ that was an unpleasant experience, and she'd rather not go through that ritual again. ]

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[personal profile] lifespanned 2022-03-06 03:18 am (UTC)(link)
[ Misa makes a non-committal hum, her eyes closed even as the soldier walks away. She looks an honest mess, face streaked with tears, her skin pale. Like him, she has herself wrapped up as tight as she can, trying to preserve any lasting bit of warmth. ]

They want us to suffer. Why wouldn't they... [ They put them through all this horrific shit, right? She's since given up asking for anything or playing the belligerent victim - they're here for a reason, and apparently they aren't going to be comfortable while they wait for that reason to come about. ] At least we got something at all.

[ The small ration, that is. Finally, she opens her eyes, looking over at her companion— she's been deep in thought over all the voices in her head thus far. Whispers of a new world, of power. It's all too blurry for her to understand it now. She wonders if the person before her is hearing the same thing, and in that moment, decides she needs to expend some energy to play pretend at being friendly to get new information. ]

We could try burning pieces of these clothes, maybe...? Just so it doesn't go out.
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[personal profile] salvageable 2022-03-06 05:29 am (UTC)(link)
[ It was worth a try, and Dokja pushes back the doubts creeping at the corners of his mind, not wanting to hear their mocking jeers at him failing at something once again. Really, they can't seem to give it a rest no matter how much he fights back.

At least he can be distracted with conversation. He hadn't given his company all that much attention, too lost in trying to breathe through the pain, but he shakes his head now. ]


The fire will go out eventually even with pieces of clothing thrown in. You'd be better off having as much clothes on you as possible when that happens.

[ He offers up the entirety of the ration (which still isn't much) to her without much thought once he's done rambling. ]

Here. I'm not hungry.
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[personal profile] lifespanned 2022-03-08 08:25 am (UTC)(link)
Oh— I can really have this?

[ Misa blinks, having not expected this in the slightest. At this point in the game, she fully expected everyone to play hardball, for the cave to turn into a man-eat-man world. Which is fine. That's human nature - or maybe it isn't. Gently, she takes what she's been offered, not feeling hungry herself, but knowing it's best to take an advantage any time you can get one. ]

Thanks... you're a really nice guy. [ There's a weak smile, and then a cough, as she tries to sit up straighter, be more presentable. ] Don't be too nice though. I don't wanna get in trouble if you die or something and I was the last one who saw you...

[ It's mostly her joking around with what little energy she has left, but, it's in her nature to try to lift the mood. ]

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[personal profile] devilmancrybaby 2022-03-07 03:28 am (UTC)(link)
[ This is the first time Luo Binghe has seen someone do this, in his handful of excursions back down into the throne-room to half-heartedly pester people who haven't given in yet. He peers curiously down at the sludge, head tilted slightly to one side, and thinks, not for the first time down here, of his own blood parasites. This is, he feels, a bit less elegant. ]

It does seem a little too easy. [ He looks up at Dokja with a bland smile. ] Perhaps there's still more inside.
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[personal profile] salvageable 2022-03-07 05:38 am (UTC)(link)
[ Is he imagining it? Now that he's repelled the sludge from his insides, he can feel the stirrings of his usual strength begin to awaken from within him. It's slow, he can tell that much, and while his hands still tremble when he tries to close them into a fist, they feel a bit lighter.

He glances up at the stranger that he's seen make his way in and out of the cavern from time to time before straightening back out. Dokja frowns, glances down at the mess he'd made, then quickly looks away.

He very much does not want to think about there being more inside of him. ]


I don't know about easy. [ Everything about him is exhausted and it shows. ] How long has it been now? Since we were led down here.
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[personal profile] devilmancrybaby 2022-03-08 04:49 am (UTC)(link)
[ Binghe frowns slightly. Longer than he'd prefer, honestly; he wasn't expecting to have to wait around for so much time after giving these people what they wanted. That's what he gets for being so immediately on board for the Kenoma I guess! ]

Six or seven days, I think.

[ He glances sideways at Dokja. Is he looking a little less feeble...? ]

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[personal profile] dragon_rider 2022-03-14 06:49 am (UTC)(link)
[ By now, so long into their stay, Hiccup's began feeling better. The dark thoughts burst through with something else — Something he defines more as himself, but can't do anymore than that. The last vestiges of the darkness in his slower movements, and half asleep look —

Well, no. Now he looks wide-awake when the other's vomiting something up. He recoils instinctively, blinking at the thing that he unfortunately notices is very unlikely any food they've been given. And that — that makes him feel sick as he twists back to look at the other. ]


I mean — No, none of the guys up there did anything like that. [ Which probably means that, if it's somethign to do with what he thinks it might, maybe it's still in there? Something they ate? ] — Anyway, how are you feeling? We don't have any mouth wash, but I can go find some water.
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[personal profile] salvageable 2022-03-15 05:17 am (UTC)(link)
[ Hey, buddy, sorry you had to see that...

Dokja's already pale face has somehow become paler. There's no way he would feel alright after throwing up something so disgusting, but... But he does? Almost like he's removed a solid weight from within him, a foreign object that had no reason for being there in the first place.

And Hiccup's right. He hadn't seen anyone else vomit up black sludge and he's not certain if that's a cause for concern or not. ]


I'm not sure how I feel at the moment. [ He can still feel the aftereffects of being sick. ] Water would be fantastic, though.
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[personal profile] dragon_rider 2022-03-16 09:56 pm (UTC)(link)
You know, yeah — that's fair. Let me see what I can get.

[ He glanced over his shoulder to the others a brief moment before moving to get the last bit of water he'd tucked away — It was supposed to be for emergencies, but maybe this was emergency enough.

He's back a moment later, glad that some of his energy had returned in the last day of a half before offering the drink: ]


Just be careful, it might be the last you get for a while.

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